I think I need to state a few things, no one is the cause of it but I haven’t been forward about a few quirks of mine. First off, if I’m contacting someone to go out, then I’m usually available but even then I could freak out and not go. Contacting me to go out usually will be a no. I’m alone five days a week til about 7 at night on average. If I’m not going out then I’m staying in for a reason. On the grounds of me even contacting people… I won’t always be available. There’s many factors for this, I don’t always keep tabs on my phone and it goes unnoticed most the time. There’s days I just can’t handle people and just close myself away from people. I’ve even experienced not getting messages all the time. I’m a reclusive person and I tend to shut away a lot. No one but the people I live with, hear from me daily. No one. People go for months without hearing from me. Give me time and I’ll usually get back with you. I wont stand for being spammed with angry messages either. It’s not just you. Also about conventions… I don’t know 100% if I’m going to specific ones. Only NMA and Youmacon are for sure. The others are just what I would like to get to go to. Cosplays are also maybes. Unless I’ve committed to the cosplay but that rarely happens due to the uncertainty. These are just some of the reasons people don’t wait around and I don’t have many friends. I barely go out, nothing is certain, I’m terrible with keeping in touch, I don’t always want to talk. I’m thankful for the friends I have. Maybe this will help with understanding me a little better.

Brunette ad rocking my color of choice. yashumash is coming over~

I’m not doing this because I’m some attention whore who wants likes. Fuck that I could care less. I’d rather not be popular because I fucking hate people and anyone who knows me knows that. Now I’m fucking serious and there’s gonna be a fucking spring cleaning of who I give a damn about. Because there’s no fucking way I’m gonna give a damn about someone who doesn’t give a damn about me. Now if you’re just a follower because you like my reposts and when I bitch or you actually find me attractive. And obviously there’s going to be exception to this, if you’ve kept in contact with me via other sources I won’t unfollow. But I wanna know who actually gives a damn about me as a person or just from a followers point. 

Like this post.

I’m going to be on anti-biotics for the remainder of the day and most likely bed ridden. The swelling is still down and it’s no longer hot to the touch. Now I still changed my bandage and put some new Neosporin on it. Then took my anti-biotic. But yeah this shit sucks…

I woke up with a bubble of puss underneath my skin and the swelling was hot to the touch. I wasn’t able to show my Mom, who is a highly intelligent surgical tech at Genesys Hospital, because she works a 9a-7p shift. Now naturally I panicked when she said I had to leak it. So a few anti-bio-tics for the infection and some pain killers. [and a wicked joint] I was able to pop the gross fucking puss bubble and leak it. peroxide was poured onto the cut after leaking it and then Neosporin and a bandage was there to cover it. The swelling and pain has gone down significantly. This infection may very well be the source of my virus that has been keeping me sick. Let us hope for my quick recovery. For those of you who cared. This is Nik signing out. u w u <3

I’ve been spending the past two days tearing out my hair and anxiously awaiting a response from a group I applied to… I’m scared I’m rusty from back when I used to RP in groups with stricter guidelines. I’m afraid I might be rusty and they won’t accept the crap application I sent in… ugh… I hate my mind sometimes. I mean… who am I kidding…

But isn’t it a little ineffective to temporarily block a user who failed to fix something on a wiki article they made… blocking them in which makes it impossible to fix said problem… just seems a little ineffective. Oh well. 

Stop the fucking Hussie hate. Seriously. Don’t give the fandom a rep for hating the creator. You already fucked up the rest of the fandom’s image.

slowly shaming myself… via rp on skype.

Yeah… Until later notice I will be working on nothing but my Homestuck cosplays. those consist of Karkat Vantas; god tier and casual, Psiioniic, and Equius (his last name is forever lost to me.).

These are all cosplays I will be doing whenever, fun little projects. Hopefully I can talk some friends into joining me. Other than my girlfriend who is going to be cosplaying Gamzee Makara and Grand Highblood.

I’ll start making the horns next weekend. Or if I can talk my mom into taking me to the store tomorrow.. either way it’ll all be fine. I can’t wait to get my sewing machine for Christmas.

I’m lazy…

I have to make the blog tomorrow.

I will do this…

I can’t think of a URL.

I’ll talk to Tani about it…

…

…

Out.

all my dash updates are like “BAM!” PORN…. and like how awkward is it to be looking at oncest with my mom over my shoulder… e - e

I really don’t think I should be tumblin’ at work.

e - e …

…

n 3 n

Pfft~ I don’t care!